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Name: Elysia
Birthday: 3/10/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Ummmmm...well let's see.....there's alot so i'll say the first thing that comes to my head God, people, reading, basketball, complaining about me needing to exercise, love to inspire, talking about life, do for others, give all the love that I can give, having fun if you know what i mean...........
Expertise: Thinking too much, complaining, annoying others, faking, being real,learning people, there is much more.....
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  Lylyer3
Member Since:
6/19/2004
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| I have been wanting to write for a while, but obviously something else is occupying my life at this moment. It's called PHARMACY SCHOOL. Everyday I experience something new in my life and it's all due to PHARMACY SCHOOL. I still love it though. There is really like no stress in my life, but then there is. I guess what I am saying is I think I have learned how to deal with it. Really everything is chaos right now, there is not enough time, no decisions are ever made, I feel down at times, I still cry, but I just breathe and know that God is walking with me. I seem to fall towards to finding that peace I can hold on to...that will calm all of nerves. Like today...today was and still is crazy. I will be honest. I really wanted some alcohol to calm my nerves. Then I was like I will eat something fattening, so I wont reside to alcohol. Next I was like I am not even hungry and I do not want to get fatter than what I already am. So as I head to 7-11 to get some coffee so I can study, I run into some druggies. They asked me for change and I said I only have a card. The guy proceeds to ask me for some soda. I said sure and asked the ladies if they wanted something. So I brought them all sodas. At that very moment my nerves were released from the strangle it could not overcome. I walked to my car like look at God. He knows what makes me happy and keep me from my temptations. I also realized that I get a high off of helping others, esp those who do not expect anything from me. I guess I am on the right path with my career or life as I see it...lol. Recently, God has helped me realized how much I can trust Him. Last week, I had a crying moment. Everything was falling apart and did not seem like it will get better soon (obviously it still hasnt improved). So I was trying to figure out what to do. I just could not think of anything, but God. Then I got upset at myself because I have not been connecting with God as much as I wanted to. I felt horrible and lonely. So I am sitting in my car trying to figure out what to do with myself. Then God said to me, "I am in control of everything." At that very moment I realized as long as I do what I am suppose to do, God is doing His part...even at times when I am not. I was like wow...I am so worried for nothing. I was worried about getting good grades, so I can get a scholarship. But God already told me not to worry about paying for school, He got it. I really do not listen. I was still caught up in living according to man's standards. But not anymore. So now that my eyes have been open, I am really not ashamed of what failures or incompetencies I have. I am actually proud of them because they build my character and keep me humble. Most of all they show others, how great God is and that it is by His grace I am here. All the glory goes to Him. Thank You Jesus! Be blessed! Ly-Ly | | |
| It seems like everyone in my life who has a health issue just falls apart. You get a report that they are doing better and the next day you find out its worst than what it was. And I am very hungry, need gas, and need a better car. | | |
| So I am extremely tired, but I am having a hard time going to sleep at this moment. I think I have a habit of slowly winding down when I get back to my place, which should encourage me to get home earlier. Anyway today made me realize how much respect I gain from my friends. I did not know they looked to me to be their keeper until today. It is funny how some of my friends are ashamed to share their faults or even just feelings with me because I do not engage in what they do. But most of the time I pour my heart out to them. (It may take some time, but I do not hold back) Well today, my friend told me slightly of what was wrong with her, but still could not totally confess to me. That was eating her up...not because I wanted to know, but I think she needed to share with someone that she trusted. Holding it in did not do her any good and now she is in a bad state of mind. So it is not a good idea to hold things in...like foreal. So people if there is a problem in your life please talk to someone about it...not everyone, but someone you can trust in to help you deal with the issue. Also if someone needs your help do not neglect them...no matter how much you want to. Saving someone's life or helping someone get closer to Jesus is more significant than what you need to do. Be bless! | | |
| That's how much I am going to working next week. I have to work straight up till classes start. And guess what??? I aint mad about it. Im actually excited. It is preparing me for the school year to come. Well I gotta keep this short considering that when I write long entries they never make it on here. Anyway it is amazing how you mature spiritually. Like everything about you changes, especially your thinking. All the things I cared about last school year does not exist. I am about my future and training myself for this life so I can move on. I love you all...Be bless! | | |
| Everytime I try to write a good entry on here my computer always mess up. Maybe it's too long...maybe yall not suppose to be in my business.... I dont know but it was going to be great...blown | | |
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